There are many instances that I can recall where I gave my stepmom, Kim, a hard time when it came to depressing movies. She just hated them. Didn't matter how great the acting or cinematography was, if it was sad then she didn't see the point. I, on the other hand, thought that sad endings were the best because they were "real." And I'd be sure to give her a hard time whenever I saw her watch a cliché romcom with the most stereotypical ending possible. It just didn't make sense to me. They were on all accounts "bad movies" from the acting to the directing and especially to the story. And she knew that and agreed but she watched them anyway. "Why would anyone ever want to watch something that hits all these happy beats in the worst ways and has a stupid happy ending?" Kim argued that life was already sad enough, she didn't need that in her movies. At the time, I didn't really understand the concept. Now I do.
I rarely watch anything that isn't comedy-related nowadays. I've always had a love for comedy (with a recent obsession with stand-up) as it's just been my "go-to" for something to put on when I need something to fall asleep to, write to, or just mindlessly watch. I become too invested in dramas and they effect my life too much. The Red Wedding? That shit wrecked me for days. Felt like I had lost a relative. Hell, I have a difficult time nowadays when it comes to watching any film drama. Just the other day I put on Short Term 12 and had to shut it off during the first scene that even hinted at something bad going on. I just couldn't handle it. Kim was right, life is depressing enough. Why would I use my escape as just another look at someone else's unhappiness?
Spoilers for Edge of Tomorrow
Does this mean that I won't ever appreciate a fantastically executed sad ending? Of course not. Se7en is still one of my favorite movies ever and The Mist is fucking brilliant. Don't worry, I still like sad endings but I think the main difference is that I'll actually be rooting for the happy ending nowadays. I'll be rooting for the survivor girl in whatever slasher I'm watching to make it to the end without the killer coming back. I'll be hoping that Seth Rogen can totally land whichever out-of-his-league actress is involved with him in Apatow's latest. Because I've realized that rooting for the sad ending isn't campaigning for artistic merit or wanting a real representation of life. It's fucked up.
I think it's really just about growing up. When I was in high school, watching a dark depressing film on something related outside to schooling, I could have an outsiders perspective. As soon as films start taking you back to bad memories PTSD-style, then it's usually the time that they become harder to watch. I know that's how it has been for me and while I haven't lost an appreciation for what I liked before, it could easily affect my viewing of anything else in the future. Change in perspectives happen, I'm just not sure with me how much it's "I love happy endings" vs. "I hate sad endings" because neither is true. However, if you make me really feel for your character and make them a deep, dimensional person, then yeah, like in life, I'm gonna root for the happy ending for them. Because everyone deserves that. And I'm not an asshole.
Or at least I try not to be.
What I'm Watching:
I used to play video games a lot when I was in high school. Like, a fucking lot. Some days I'd be putting 8 hours into a video game all the while going to school and having a social life. Thankfully my social life transferred over into gaming. Most of my best friends had Xbox Live and we'd voice chat on there for hours while we played. It was just a part of growing up and being kids. As you may remember, I recently wrote a blog post about my falling out of love with video games and so, after several suggestions from readers, I decided to see if it was just a phase, if I had finally "grown up" or if I just hate having fun.
The recent announcement of Halo: The Master Chief Collection and the rumored Call of Duty: Modern Warfare Collection and Gears of War Collection show that my hobby of gaming just may continue, but not in the way it did before. These are the same games I've played before, just with some updated graphics and, sometimes, a new engine. But that's really the point in my enjoyment of it. I don't want to have to learn an entirely new game and maps. If I did that, I wouldn't be playing a franchise game like either of these. It's kind of sad, I remember my dad using the same reasoning for not wanting to play video games whenever I'd try to prod him into a game of Madden. "It's too much work, I can't invest the time to be good." At the time I just saw it as an old-person-response (my dad was like 35 at the time. That's old to young me) and moved on. Now I get it.
I suppose I'm just retreating into what's familiar due to the fact that I have no faith in original content. I've been disappointed too many times. I'm the type of person that learns from experience and as of this point in my life, I know that if it's not coming from Rockstar, then chances are 50/50 that it's going to suck. These upcoming remakes are not just that. It's not like they're replacing voice actors and changing what we once knew. This is a remastering of what I consider to be some of my favorite games of all time. And they couldn't have come at a more pivotal times. Who knows, given a little more time, I may have been forced to grow up.
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